• High Tolerance

    Silent screams into the abyss
    No one is coming or ever will
    I have to bear the agony stoically 
    How many deaths should I endure
    In this lifetime alone and solely 
    If there is another life after this
    I pray to never come back again
    To such an apathetic world 
    I have yet to understand 
    If unconditional love does exist
    Or is it simply within me 
    This universe is not for souls 
    Like mine with such high tolerance
    For suffering and constant pain
    Still I survive as I always have 
    Hoping for a day that elevates
    All of my excruciating woes 

    ~Tash
    Dated: 19.02.2024

  • Dreams

    Dreams were all she had
    And the universe that existed 
    In the land of fiction
    Why did it ring so true when
    It can never be true
    Yet it moves her to the core still
    And the solutions escape to 
    The muddle of love and human connection

    ~Tash
    Circa 2016

  • Foolish

    I wanted to hold her hand 
    Outside of those prisoned walls
    I thought she would go with me
    To walk around the streets of Montreal
    That we would have coffee somewhere
    And begin a new journey and all that
    As if that was ever going to happen
    How foolish my childish heart 
    Like she'd say you are just like a baby
    And I'd say no you're my little...
    Of course I fell head over heels for her
    She was one of a kind 
    No one would ever compare or come close
    Her face is etched on my eyes
    She showed me tendresse I had never known

    ~Tash
    Dated: 26.04.18

  • Enlightenment

    Always hope for the best
    Don't think about the worst
    Past has gone before and future is after
    Present is here
    Search for your bliss and choose your dreams
    Don't give up on hope and faith
    Just follow your aims

    Never get intimidated by a challenge
    Let your fears be your strength
    Fight your inner demons with courage and intention
    Render everything with determination
    Only then you'll find the path of succession
    Achieve everything with honesty and integrity
    Don't step into paths of treachery and insincerity
    Be confident not arrogant
    Believe in yourself

    Follow your heart and do as it says
    Take good advice
    Give your best today
    Leave the rest to God
    Don't forget to pray
    He will lead you to your destiny
    And make your dreams come true one day

    ~Tash
    Circa 2006

  • Hollow Heart

    I don't know what it is
    But every time I feel up and high
    Things simply seem to go awry
    Messing everything up inside
    I don't ask for too much or much at all
    Somehow I go on content with
    The cards I have been dealt
    Yet I cannot deal without
    That constant struggle
    Of time and patience testing
    Me, my heart strings
    So I fall back into the darkness
    Looming through puncturing holes
    Into my soul, my poor hollow heart
    Deserves more
    Than circling back and forth
    Trying to mend its deep wounds

    ~Tash
    Dated: 6.12.2014

  • Violets for ma brunette

    Her long brunette strands
    Play at the strings of my heart
    As it sinks deep under a tropical bleu ocean
    When she passes by like a tender breeze
    She strolls the hallways like a Queen
    Her purple demeanour like the royals
    One glance from her desert brown eyes
    And I fall head first, heart in my hand
    For her I would give up my freedom
    If it meant that I could have her embrace
    Her company, so magnetic and mesmerizing
    Once again she pushes me away playfully
    Expressing what a stupid idea it is
    To taste the forbidden fruit that hangs 
    From her soft rose petal lips so pink
    I relive those memories and reel over
    And over in the theatre that is my heart
    We colour together in court not to be apart
    But now she has moved on to a new domain
    And I wonder if ever I cross her mind
    My heart says yes she must remember me
    Either way an Angel walked into ma vie
    I cannot seem to get her off my brain
    The tendresse of her touch & embrace
    Something I never felt before with anyone else
    So I long for her, shedding warm tears and fears
    While my cold body shivers from the usual chills
    Only the emblazing warmth of her skin
    Can exude what I need from within

    ~Tash
    Dated: 01.12.2017

  • Glimpse of the Sun

    The moment between night and dawn
The half moon peaks in through 
The misty clouds
She guards the sky and pines 
For the sun to appear
Still darkness looms before her
Just a glimpse of the sun
May clear the fog
The cloak above

~Tash
Circa 2017

  • In Dreams

    A fantastical place
    Away from harsh reality
    From all the people in life
    Deprived of love
    Loneliness in existence
    Searching for love 
    In all the wrong places
    Finding solace in fantasy
    No one can truly understand
    Your pain but
    Only in dreams

    ~Tash 
    Circa 2017

  • Mirage

    She was a mirage
The embodiment of all 
My deepest desires
The epitome of unconditional love
She was the Queen of heaven
Paradise personified
My emotional suicide and destruction
Bearer of my infantile insecurities
The sun to my moon
A deity of worship
Healer of the soul 
Sunshine locks of gold

~Tash
Circa 2016

  • Solitude

    The choking pain in my throat
I gulp the feelings away
Deeper inside my hollow heart
Will I ever be free like the birds
When will I meet that sunshine
That will warm my clouds away

Like the clipped wings of the branches
Or a flower picked before its full bloom
If the current of darkness follows me
I may never find my dreams of life coming true
So I may resort to my solitude
The only state I can count on

~Tash
Circa 2016